But I'm no walker away , No complaint I got much to gain so they keep testing me , And I keep feeding their face.......KoL

Ok, I'm sitting in my living room at the moment, because I can not sleep in my own apartment. I tried and tried but sleeping was far from what I wanted to do. Right now I have decided to ask the girls to lunch this week. When they are both available...ha ha I can't live like this for another second. I refuse to be miserable for an entire year. I just won't deal with it. It completely stresses me out. Even though I'm trying to figure things out I'm still going home tomorrow and trying to stay away from my apartment. Maybe I will leave a note on the fridge or try to talk to them tomorrow? who knows I know this will not be easy for me. Right now there is absolutely no communication. I don't even say hi and neither do they. This must change, if we are going to act like human beings. I am not perfect and neither are they. We have to make rules and a guide lines. I absolutely hate coming home to a house full of people I don't know! I want a task list or something so we each have a assigned thing to clean when it needs done, so I don't get yelled at to clean when I'm not even here to clean. If I'm not here 80% of the time how much mess do I make?? Yes I know that it has to be a fair distribution of tasks but when I get home they are sleeping and when I'm sleeping they are awake. Makes things a little hard when I try to be quiet opposed to them. I will make them not hate me! ha ha I'm sick of living like this!
I'm a sucker for classical music. Right now at 3 in the morning I'm listening to Mozart's requiem. Feeling optimistic for the death of this horrible living situation.
Through my head phones I keep hearing this stupid, awful and annoying beeping! I think I maybe loosing my mind. But never fear I'm going to address everything I can think of so they will be open with me. I don't care if they tell me everything they hate about me! As long as there is a way for us to fix the tense hostile atmosphere.
I suppose I will finish up some homework. ha ha Since I will not return to my bed until I get home tomorrow.

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